November 01, 2008

An Obsession That I Have!!

As many of you already know I have this little obsession with climbing. This post is to give you a little update on this obsession. Earlier this summer Jess and I had a few good friends Jeff and Sarah Norris leave to work in South Africa for a year. Before leaving Jeff and I were having a conversation about climbing and he challenged me to try to lead climb a 5.12 before he got back which will be around July 2009. At the time I thought that there was no way this would be possible. Even today as I am writing this post I still think that this is a long way off, but I am going to try. Since moving to Colorado the hardest routes that I have lead were 5.10c's (Blackman's Burden at Shelf Road and Mighty Thor at Garden of the Gods), and I didn't even lead them cleanly. On Thursday October 30th that all changed. I lead a route on the East face of Gray Rock called Beat Me Up Scotty 5.10d with no rests. It was a big milestone for my Colorado climbing career. This is a super fun route with a very distinct crux section between the 2nd and 3rd pitons. Even though this route isn't sustained 5.10d climbing it's huge that I made it to the top cleanly. Next up Diesel and Dust 5.11a just a few climbs down from this one. We shall see how it goes!! To be continued.......

October 26, 2008

Fall Drive 08 "It was a beauty"






October 09, 2008

Timmy ONeill Reflects

October 08, 2008

Fun Wedding Pictures



STUDS

November 20, 2007

Engagement Pictures














November 01, 2007

Kris "Goldie" Filak


My good friend Kris Filak has joined in contributing to this blog. I am stoked that he will now be a part of this site in a big way. I am looking forward to the things that he has to say. Kris is not only a good friend but also a fellow rock climber, follower of Jesus, pursuer of a medical career, and all around good guy.

October 21, 2007

Pictures of Myself and Jess





Unction - Meaning Firey Passion!

I have always loved this quote....how I wish I lived this way....why do I falter? Lord give me strength to live as boldly and passionately as this man. Give me Unction.

This remarkable testament was found amidst the papers of a martyred African pastor.

I’m a part of the fellowship of the unashamed. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I’m a disciple of His and I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away or be still.

My past Is redeemed. My present makes sense. My future Is secure. I’m done and finished with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, cheap living and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don’t have to be right, or first, or tops, or recognized, or praised, or rewarded. I live by faith, lean on His presence, walk by patience, lift by prayer and labor by Holy Spirit power.

My face Is set. My gait Is fast. My goal Is heaven. My road may be narrow, my way rough, my companions few, but my guide Is reliable and my mission Is clear. I will not be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed. I will not flinch In the face of sacrifice or hesitate In the presence of the adversary. I will not negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander In the maze of mediocrity.

I won’t give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up and preached up for the cause of Christ. I am a disciple of Jesus. I must give until I drop, preach until all know and work until He comes. And when He does come for His own, He’ll have no problems recognizing me. My colors will be clear!

October 18, 2007

Reflection


It's strange to think that about a year ago to date I was just starting my season working in Antarctica. I was stepping into the unknown with what would turn out to be an adventure of a lifetime. I remember going into it with uncertainty. I was unsure whether it was a good move to go so far away for such a long period of time. I was uncertain if I would make any friends while working on the ice. I was uncertain of the challenges that were ahead of me.

Looking back at it all I can say with full confidence that God was there with me through it all, the highs and lows. I made some decent friends while on the ice. I came across many challenges but God was there to pull me through. I see the fruit of my decision to go by now having everything paid off. I am now able to focus on the future rather than focusing so much on the present (not that it's a bad thing to focus on the present). I learned more about how vast our God is. I saw him at work even in a dark and cold place such as McMurdo Station, Antarctica. I learned the valuable lesson of trusting in God for my strength and guidance (even though now at times I forget to do that). I see now how much God moved in my life during that time. I wanted to just take the time and tell you all how thankful that I am for that experience. Our God is good even more than we can understand at times.

October 17, 2007

Chris Sharma Climbing Dreamtime

August 27, 2007

A Climber's Obsession!!!!

If you are a climber at heart and love seeing people do the impossible then check out this newer site www. momentumvm.com

Basically I think that this site does a great job at keeping climbers posted on the newer news in climbing via video form. It has many great videos of some phenomenal climbers. Check it out if you are at all interested.

August 21, 2007

Back to the world of Blogger....

I am back to using my original blog...I deleted my old blog because I grew tired of paying for it monthly...I must say that blogger has changed since I last used it. I hope to start posting more often once again with random thoughts of things that I am learning and random stories from my life. Much has changed since I last posted on this site. I still live in Colorado Springs but I have now traveled to and from Antarctica. I also am dating an amazing girl Jess Feller. I have switched gears a little and am now working at a hospital in the ICU as a Critical Care Tech. God is still growing and stretching me whether I want Him to or not. I am thankful for my journey and am still amazed at the journey God has me on. I feel blessed beyond belief and want to share more about what God is teaching me. I also wish to hear about what God is teaching you.

Cheers,
Matt

September 25, 2005

What Is A True Servants Heart?

What does it mean to be a Servant of Christ? (John12:26)

What does it mean to Serve one another? (Galatians 5:13)

How does one serve truely and not out of self-righteousness? Richard Foster says, "True service comes from a relationship with the divine Other deep inside. We serve out of whispered promptings, divine urgings."

What did Jesus mean when he said in John 12:25,26 , "He who loves his life loses it; and he who hates his life in this world shall keep it to life eternal. If anyone serves Me, let him follow Me; and where I am, there shall my servant also be; if anyone serves Me, the Father will honor him."

or in....

Matthew 6:24, "No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will hold to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon (reffering to all of a person's material resources)." <---- when I read this about material possessions I think about in Acts 4:32-36 (v. 32 "All the believer were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, bu they shared everything they had." v.34a "There were no needy persons amoung them")

"Whoever would be great among you must be your servant.....evenas the Son of man came not to be served but to serve." (Matthew 20:25-28)

When I think of service I think of John chapter 13 verses 1 thourgh 17 when Jesus washes his disciples feet. This is one of the last conversations that is recorded in John before being crucified. I want to particullarly pay attention to the words of Jesus in this passage. In verses 12-17 he states, "Do you understand what I have done for you ?" he asked them. "You call me 'Teacher' and 'Lord,' and rightly so, for that is what I am. Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another's feet. I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. I tell you the truth, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messanger greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them." What does all this mean?

I am currently struggling with this idea of service. I want so bad to be a servant , one who does things in hidden and seeks no reward, but it is hard. My human nature wants human praise but my soul longs for true service, one where my Father will reward me in heaven.

What are your thoughts on Service and what do you think Jesus was saying in these passages?

September 06, 2005

The Knowledge of the Holy

Please join in on the discussion of this book!
Click on
Knowledge of the Holy to read this book online. (I would highly suggest starting with the preface.)

I have been reading this book off and on for the past 3 weeks and have been challenged greatly by it. Currently I am in Chapter 5: The Self Existence of God.

Quotes to Ponder:

"What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us."
-What do we think about God?
-What do we not think about God that we ought to? "her silence is often more eloquent that her speech."

"The heaviest obligation lying upon the Christian Church today is to purify and elevate her concept of God until it is once more worthy of Him."

What are your thoughts on these quotes? What else from this book sticks out to you?

I know for myself that I am continually fighting a battle within to think correct thoughts of who God is.

September 03, 2005

Crestone Needle


Levi and I packed up Wednesday day and left Colorado Springs at 3:00 PM to embark on our journey to climb one of the hardest mountains in Colorado. We had only a little idea of what to expect but nothing really prepared us for what we were faced with the next few days.

Crestone Needle is one of five 14ers (A 14er is a 14 thousand foot mountain in Colorado. There are no mountains over 14 thousand feet in Colorado. There are a total of 54 14ers in the state.) that can be reached within the valley where were going to camp. This mountain was the last 14er to be climbed in Colorado and is thought to be one of the most technical.

The route that we climbed was called Ellingwood's Arete or ledges which were named after Albert Ellingwood who first ascended this mountain in 1925. Albert Ellignwood climbed Cretone Peak, a neighboring 14er in 1916 and looked over and saw Crestone Needle. He was immediately drawn to it and decided that one day he would climb it. 9 years later he would return and establish what today is known as the route called Ellingwood's Arete.

Levi and I arrived at the trailhead to the base of the mountains right when the sun was setting. We hiked into the South Colony Lakes where we set up our tent for the evening. The next morning we woke up at a grueling 4:00am and began our hike to the base of the mountain. When we reached the base we waited till sunlight to begin our adventure up one of the most difficult 14ers in Colorado.

The climb was long and at hard times. It was difficult at times climbing and carrying a pack that weighed roughly 35-40 lbs. By noon we were about 65 percent of the way up the mountain and we knew that we must keep going. We were hoping that no thunderstorms or rain showers would develop because that would have really hampered our attempts at climbing. The one thing about this climb is that once you start there is no other way off the mountain except for up and over. By 5:00pm we were gearing up to climb the last few hundred vertical feet. We were exhausted and we knew that we had underestimated what it took to tackle a mountain this hard. We had hoped to be at the top and descending down by now but we couldn't let that get us down, instead we had to keep going. Our new goal was to get up to the top before nightfall. At 8:00pm it was starting to get dark and we were on the last section of the climb. This was the hardest part of the mountain and we were already taking deep breaths in between each footstep. Levi and I grunted our way up the final leg of the mountain and scrambled to the top and finally could see off the back side of the mountain.


The joy of climbing the mountain had finally come to fruition, we were on top and nothing had gotten in the way, but that joy only lasted a few moments. It was now dark and we had to get off the mountain. We looked around to see if we could find the route we were supposed to take down but our headlamps would only shine so far and proved to show that getting down that night was not a possibility. We decided to dress as warmly as we could and spend the night at the peak of the mountain.

This was one of the coldest nights of my life. Every half an hour I would awake to my body shivering from having its heat taken from the cold rock underneath me and the cold air above me. I would attempt to try to regain feeling in my arms, hands, legs, and feet throughout the rest of the evening every time I awoke. This task proved not to be easy and made the night miserable.

Before leaving on this trip I had told a few people that if I had not contacted them by 2:00am Friday morning that something had gone wrong and to take further action. It had now passed that hour and I new that people back in Colorado Springs were trying to figure out where we were and what had happened to us.

The morning came slow but surely enough. When it became light enough for us to see we stood up, still shivering, packed our bags, and began our decent down the Broken Hand Pass (the class 4 decent down off the mountain). We were still devoid of energy, semi-dehydrated, and cold from the previous 20 hours. Step after step we descended down the mountain. It seemed as if we were never going to get off but after 3-4 hours of walking we had finally made it down and to our camp site. What a relief!!!!. I went to lay down in the shade and Levi went to filter some water from the stream. Within five minutes of lying down I heard some people yelling our names. It was Alan, Skyler, and Jason (friends from Colorado Springs) that had come out to rescue us if needed. When we saw each other there was a mutual sense of relief.

Levi and I had conquered Crestone Needle. For me this was one of the most difficult things that I had done in my life. Years of rock climbing experience helped but were not the only thing needed to climb this mountain. I am thankful and know that God's hand protected us throughout our journey up and down the mountain by keeping us out of harms way and allowing good weather for more than 30 straight hours.

After climbing Crestone Needle I decided that, even though Long's Diamond Face may actually be an easier climb, I am not going attempt it this year. Maybe next summer, maybe never, who knows.....

God I thank you for allowing safe passage up and down the mountain, For the amazing weather, For friends that were praying for us, For the friends that came out to rescue us (not knowing what to expect but coming anyways), For just the simple fact that you love us.

August 31, 2005

Update On Life

Things have been going well, but not necessarily as planned. I had hoped to have a job lined up by now, but it has not proved to be that easy. So the job hunt continues. In the meantime I am finsihing up my internship with Pierced, which has been a great hands on experience that I wouldn't trade for anything else. Other than that I have been using my free time to get out into the great outdoors of Colorado. I have spent many days recently climbing, moutain biking, and just being outside. On Thursday Levi and I are going to attempt to rope in and climb Crestone Needle in preparation for Long's Peak. This will be challenging and hopefully an experience in which I learn lots about mountaineering.

I think reading 'Into the Thin Air' has inspired me try out mountaineering more. It even gives me hope that mountains like Everest are attainable. That does not mean that I would attempt such a feat, but it makes me wonder. I still havent finished the book. I know that the end of the book may change my outlook once again. It has at least helped me to admire even more those who try and accomplish such dreams.

August 17, 2005

Long's Peak is Going to Happen!!

I decided today that despite shoulder pains and problems that I am going to go ahead and climb Long's Peak. My friend Levi and I are planning on climbing it during the dates of September 7th-9th. We are going to leave from Colorado Springs early on the 7th and try to get their and hike up with all our gear to where the technical climbing starts by that evening. The next day we are going to climb through "Lamb's Slide Coular" and up "Kiener's Route" (the red one on the map) to the top. This section of the mountain will involve some rock climbing and some steep hiking through a glacier field. We then will hopefully find the rappel anchors and rap back down to the base of the climbs where we will spend the night of the 8th. On September 9th we will hike back down with our packs and drive back home. I can't wait! I have been wanting to do this trip for awhile. In the fall another buddy of mine is talking about doing s0me climbing in the Tetons and Levi wants to climb "Crestone Needle". We shall see.

August 16, 2005

The Poor Teach Better than the Rich....


During January 2003 I had the amazing opportunity to travel to Kisumu, Kenya. This was one of those trips where God really opened my eyes to a lot of things. I truely saw what it meant to be in poverty, to be homeless, to be hungry, and to have nothing.

I also realized that even though many of the street children and families that we worked with had nothing, they still were thankful and had hope. They still trusted God. They trusted that they would be provided for and their joy was overflowing.

I long to be like some of the people that I met in Kenya, to love God no matter what the circumstances, and to trust him the same in all seasons of my life. When things are going great, to not forget that He is the one blessing me, and when things are hard, to know that he will not push me past what I can bear.

Lord help me to trust you more. To not think selfishly about myself, but to rely on you. That when things get though that I can see you working in the midst of my circumstances, and when things are going well that I may be able to give you praise for the blessings in my life. Help me to not loose sight of you in my life and at all times to be thankful for what I have.

August 15, 2005

Fast Food for Christians


This is a picture of me climbing in the Red River Gorge, Kentucky. I am at Left Flank on a climb called "Fast Food for Christians," a 5.10a. I really miss the climbing in the Red. I hear of all these great new places that are being bolted down there and want to go back. I have decided to try to make it down there right before Thanksgiving, given that my shoulder heals.

Before I go I want to really think about the name of this climb pictured here, "Fast Food for Christians." I think too often Christians in America try to get their quick fix of Christianity, whether it be by attending church Sunday morning or listening to the radio on the way to work. I want to say that many Christians want a quick fix solution to their problems. They hope that in some way that the message they heard on Sunday or the book that they just got and are reading will make their problems go away. I think this is straight up absurd.

I know for myself that their are no easy fix solutions to some of the things that I have experienced in life. I or my family may be forgiven but the damage has still been done, and I will have to live in the consequences of what happened. If you try to bandage it, the bandaid will just cover it up till a later time when it will fall off and be exposed again. It takes time to work through the issues that we face in our day to day in our lives. Some issues may take a life time, while others may take months or even years. I hope to not sound harsh but the Christian life is not abour forgetting what has happened to us but pushing through and seeing how God can make use of you in the midst of your circumstances. It also shows a complete reliance and dependance on God.

My parents recently went through a divorce. There is are a ton of issues that I am dealing with as a result of this divorce. I know that I cannot put the divorce on the back burner, but I must work through this nasty and sucky life experience and see God's grace on the other side of it. This is not going to be quick and easy. It may take a lifetime for me to process it, but I must move through it. Ministry has no quick fixes. It is not fast paced like the rest of society. You cannot pay money and have an operation to remove some of the experiences that one has had. It is a slow work through thick mud. It is one where it takes time and patience. It takes solid friendships. It takes holistic healing. It takes something and someone bigger than ourselves to make it happen. It takes God.

August 14, 2005

Goals and Aspirations

Future Goals and aspirations. Some of these goals are life long dreams. Some will take a life time of work, and others will be accomplished within a short period of time. These dreams and goals not only tell a little bit about who I am, but also tell of the person I want to become.

I hope to be a solid 5.12 Climber.
I want to climb:
  • Devil's Tower
  • Long's Peak
  • At Yosemite
  • In Thailand
  • In New Zealand
  • In South Africa

I want to live an adventurous life. One where I look back and will be able to say that I was willing to try things.

I want to travel the world. I want to experience other cultures and not be ignorant to what is going on within the world. I want to see our global God in action.

I want a family some day. A loving wife with whom I can have fun but also learn from. Someone with whom I can have deep intelligent conversations with, but also still be able to have lots of laughs with. I would love kids. How many, who knows? But I would love to experience being a father, to not only love on them, to see them grow and experience life. I would also hope that through having children that I could have a better respect for my Heavenly Father.

I would like to learn more about God and his nature whether through books, creation, conversations, or through revelation. I want to know God more so that I can worship him better.

I want to be able to Surf.

I would love to live on the ocean, but also in the mountains.

I want to visit Israel.

I want to learn to play the guitar better.

I want to hike Mount Kilimanjaro.

I want to be able to speak French more fluently.

I want to write.

I want to skydive again.

I want to climb Denali.

I want to be able to speak in public about what God is teaching me, and not only speak, but to speak well, with passion, that is able to move and stir people's hearts.

These are just some of the things that I aspire to be or do.....

August 13, 2005

Thoughts on Prayer

I have recently been thinking about the idea of prayer. Last Sunday Kent Eilers, a pastor at my church, spoke about the idea of prayer. Here are some great insights into answering some of the bigger questions dealing with prayer.

Why should one pray? or even better, why should one pray with repetition?
* When we Pray are we like the kid asking our parents over and over again in the grocery store trying to get something we want.....

* Or are we like the person whose house is on fire and has to make a decision, whether to get help or let it burn down. Let's say you have an accountant and a fireman living across the street. Who are you going to go to? The accountant?..... no way..... you are going to run as fast as you can to the firefighter's house. When you get there are you going to knock once and if he doesn't answer, walk away..... Heck No!.... You are going to knock over and over again, louder and louder, till he answers the door..... Why? .... because he has the power to make a difference.

Too often I find myself praying as the child wanting something from thier parent and not enough like the person whose house is on fire.

Also how do we wait in response once we have prayed?

* Do we sit back in our chairs waiting relaxed while reading a magazine?.... or do we sit at the edge of our chiar, eager, and waiting in anticipation to hear from God?

I hope these ideas stir in you and challenge your thinking on prayer.

Books That I Am Currently Reading

Listed below are books that I am currently reading or are going to read in the near future. Please feel free to comment on these books or list others that you think I should read. Many thoughts that I will be pondering in the near future will have to do with these books. I look forward to what discussion these books will bring.

Currently Reading:

The Shrewd Christian
by Neil Atkinson
Knowledge of the Holy
by A.W. Tozer
Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller
Velvit Elvis by Rob Bell
What's so Amazing About Grace by Philip Yancey
Into Thin Air by Jon Krakauer
Prayer and the Art of Volkswagon Maintenance by Donald Miller
The Five Smooth Stones of Pastoring by Eugene Peterson

Will Read Soon:
A Generous Orthodoxy
by Brian Mclaren
The Way of the Heart by Henri Nouwen
Through Painted Deserts by Donald Miller
Jesus in the Margins: Finding God in the Places we Ignore by Rick McKinley
Mudhouse Sabbath by Lauren F. Winner
How the Irish Saved Civilization by Thomas Cahill
Rich Christians in an Age of Hunger: Moving from Affluence to Generosity by Ronald J. Sider
The Present Age by Soren Kierkegaard
The Last Word and the Word After That by Brian Mclaren
Messy Spirituality by Michael Yaconelli

Quote of the Day

What do you think about this quote?

"It is not a question of whether or not we sin but more a question of how we deal with our sin."

December 15, 2004

Passion, What is it?

This is something that a friend emailed to me....... Let me know what you think?

“Passion is not something to be found. It is something to be expressed. You cannot find your passion by searching for some person, place, interest, or activity outside yourself. Rather, you express your passion within the context of your own life and the world in which you live.

Certain things can ignite your passion and help you to more fully express it. Yet the passion itself exists within you and is always there, no matter what happens on the outside.

Instead of going in search of your passion, seek to put your passion into everything you do. Even the most mundane task can be spectacularly fulfilling when you approach it with passion. Rather than searching to find the right job, the right moment, the right place or circumstance, put your passion into whatever you have right now.

You’ll experience true passion the moment you stop looking for it and start living it.”